I had a meeting with myself, I examined it, I looked into its attributes and description, I found it as follows*,**:
- It likes to rest, it is lazy, and it hates to put effort. It misses a lot on doing good deeds, it pays less or no attention to praying in the masjid, or reading Qur’an, or doing optional deeds
- It always finds excuses to quit doing good things. It always convinces me to relax and procrastinate
- It has tons of wishes, hopes, and dreams; I examined those dreams and found them related to this life and what is in it
- It does not feel content with what Allah destined for it and it always looks to what is in the hands of other people
- It fears to proclaim the truth, and stays away from the trouble of enjoining the good and forbidding the evil
- It gets bored very quickly and has no stamina to bear difficulties and challenges
- It is very curious and likes to ask and get involved in that which does not benefit it or concern it.
- It really likes having fun, lots of fun, and wasting time. It laughs a lot and kids a lot.
- It hates to serve other people and loves it when others serve it
- It becomes extremely excited when people praise it and feels sad when it is criticized
- It gets angry when when injured by a word and gets proud when it defeats whoever hurts it
- It commands me to argue, it loves it when it wins the argument, and it wishes that those who argue against it make mistakes
- It resists me so much when I want to apologize or admit my mistakes
- It drives me to manipulate the discussion and speak a lot about it and its achievements
- It always makes me realize other people’s faults and pitfalls, and drives me to correct it ONLY to look better and higher
- It fears poverty so much and commands me to be miserly and discourages me a lot from spending in charitable causes
- It hastes to making decisions and pays no attention to consequences
- It follows its emotions and leaves no room for the mind to work
* A mock analysis presented in the MAS-NY tarbiya camp while discussing self discipline and self control.
** “Let us start by ourselves,” Majdi Al-Hilali, link here